Bean, I kind of know how you feel. We fly out on the 6th August, i am an only child and lost my Dad and Aunt either side of Xmas. I feel for my mom so much as i am leaving and taking her only grandchildren 9000 miles away. I am having the severe wobbles of late and at times it stops me getting excited, however when i feel i should not be going i just can't simply say no to the job offer as i know this will never happen again. I try to take the positive that if this had happened whilst i was away then i don't know how we would have coped.
For us we just know we have to give it a try, and if it don't work out we come back. :-)